a bad day to begin

was doing some stretching at home, then realised that i've been losign a little bit more then my comfort. think could be cause of some of the food content. too salty already. hopefully the yoga sessions can rectify that problem.

what a day to start the day. or rather there was some indication since last friday already. seems like i've confirmed what they think about me already. or rather, that i'm snatching other pple's job away. that i'm taking away other pple's responsibility. thats really hurting. very hurting. it killed my morning away already.

thats why my facebook nick: ain't my job, then i'm ain't gonna do it. i'm not going to snatch away other's job, ain't i. sacarstic manner. but then serioulsy cant these mature aunties in the office have better things to do then to start to bad mouth other pple. anyway as i was told, i have to learn to accept the thinkings and the situation of other pple. ok. point noted. i'll take note.

just that sometimes, its easier said than done.
maybe i was only just exposed to such environment. being a spoilt brat as i am, and i think i am known for. (yup childish is the word) i think i've yet to be able to hold myself to such standards. thats why there are role models.
seriously sometimes i also dont know who to turn to already. friends give advice that may not be what we can accept, but its for our good. in the same case, have to learn to accept it too. but sometimes it just may not be the right time and right mood to accept it. irony aint it.

think i can only learn things slowly and try and grow up. yeah. i want to grow up but then i'm still reluctant to. poor ter.